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This has really been a lousy week!    I ate the rest of my Wednesday lunch yesterday.  My mother cooked for my birthday…and bought me a cake…and as miserable as I was, I had to eat it or I would make her feel bad!  I hate to do it, but I’m feeling the need to use the “No Weigh In” pass on Saturday…but then I’m not as accountable for my behavior.  I enjoyed seeing my Nanny (she’s my grandmother, my mother’s mother) last night, but it made me realize just how bad her memories are getting and mixed up.  Grant you, she’ll be 87 on April 6th, but she’s just not in good health and it will kill me when I lose her even though I know I should rejoice.  To top things off, my best friend for the last 10 years or so that I haven’t talked to in months who usually calls me on my birthday, didn’t even acknowledge my birthday at all.  That hurt…I’m just getting depressed…and that makes me want to comfort myself with food so I don’t have to feel this so hard right now…I haven’t, but it is so tempting right now to just EAT EVERYTHING!

Thanks all for “listening” to me vent…hopefully it will get much better now.

Take care and God bless!
Tracey

all the fattening, bad for you food for your birthday??  My attorney is going to be out today and so she wanted to take me to lunch yesterday.  Keep in mind I hadn’t eaten in over a 24 hour period.  And I was absolutely miserable!  All the extremely rich, decadent foods….AAAAGGGGGGHHHHHHH!    That’s what I should have screamed as I ran screaming from the building!  But I didn’t…I ate all of it…and was not feeling so great again the rest of the day.  I hope today goes much better.  On a good note, I did only eat half of what was on my plate!

For those of you that know me, I’m normally a positive, upbeat person.  Yesterday, however, after such a good weekend, I had the headache from, well, y’all know from where.  It was so bad my teeth hurt!  I barely made it home because the light (what little there was because it was cloudy) hurt my eyes.    After such a good weekend, I was pretty annoyed.  Thankfully, I made it home in one piece.  I did a bad, bad thing though…I finally was so hungry that I didn’t care what I ate and/or drank as long as it eased my head.  I sent my son to Jack in the Box…and ate REALLY BADLY!   On a more positive note, I woke up this morning feeling like there is a brick in my stomach.    Yet again, another reminder that I am NOT the old me…and I don’t need to eat that way.  My head has finally eased this morning and, aside from the yucky feeling in my stomach, I’m feeling better.  I am hoping for a better Tuesday and rest of the week!  My birthday is Thursday after all….and it’s supposed to be a good week!  

I hope everyone is having an absolutely fabulous Saturday!  This has been a pretty busy day today.  I have news!  I lost another 1.8 pounds this week!!    Since it hasn’t been the greatest food week, I was a little nervous. Thankfully, I watched my points but I didn’t manage to get all my fruits and veggies in…but I still managed to make some headway.  I’m so proud of myself!  It’s the little things…After all that worry this week, I still came out okay.  I was only shooting for a pound this week.  That’s my new thing…I’m just thinking a pound at a time.  But in a couple more weeks, I should hit my first 10 pounds gone!  I’m so excited!  

I did go play bingo today with my future mother in law.  It was enjoyable even though we didn’t win.  I was a bit nervous since I hadn’t spent too much time with her…but we had fun.  We’re going again tomorrow since it’s the free birthday bingo tomorrow.

Y’all, I’m really in need of some advice…and any suggestions you have would be helpful.  The girl that started this with me has now missed 2 weeks.  I told my son initially that I didn’t think that she was in this for the long haul.  I’ve been trying to head her in the right direction, but I’m not sure how things are going to go.  I know that things haven’t been that easy for her of late, but I’m really serious about losing weight and being a healthier me this time.  I am very thankful that I have all of you to help me and be supportive of me…but I hate to see my friend discontinue her journey.  Any suggestions?  I know I can’t make her be ready to take this step in her life, but I hate to see her lose the healthy habits she’s started.  Thanks all for listening to me and helping me continue on this journey!

Take care and God bless!

Tracey (I’ll be a big yet!)

By the time I got home yesterday, I was having to make myself eat dinner!  I knew I really didn’t want to eat, but I needed to eat.  Today is the same thing.  I don’t want to eat anything.  It used to happen when I would get depressed, but I’m not really depressed…was stressed yesterday and wanted to eat everything!  I don’t want to completely screw up my metabolism…any suggestions??

For those of you that are on WW and using the monthly pass…have any of you really used the eTools?  I know they have the message boards and stuff, but I haven’t really used it.  I keep thinking that I should really use some of the extras I’m allowed and paying for…

I hope everyone is having a great Sunday.  I gave into a craving that I shouldn’t have, but since I’m feeling better, I think I’m going to try to do one of my walking tapes…now that I got my VCR working again.  BTW, it seems I didn’t lose all my stuff when the tree fell and pull the electricity line out.  A friend said something to me about changing the fuses, so we decided to try it…and it worked for the TV that was in my living room…the VCR/DVD player I had in my room and the double VCR that was in the living room.  It’s a good thing to know.  I guess I will have to make sure I try to work out all this week to make up for my craving that I gave into!

Better go, my son is here and we have to try to rig the broken window in my dining room.  Time to call the insurance!  I still don’t have an oven…

Take care and God bless!

Tracey

I lost 2.6 pounds today!  I’m so excited!  I KNEW IT WAS A GOOD FOOD WEEK!  So I went and celebrated with my son at Applebee’s!  I ate off the WW menu, BTW, the chicken portabello sandwich is great!  He’s making some headway too!  He actually ate a little bit of spinich salad which is great stride for him!

I hope everyone is having a FABULOUS weekend!

Take care and God bless!

Tracey

Good afternoon all!  I am so excited!  Night 2 without having to take a muscle relaxer!  I know it’s not much to some, but it means something to me after the pain I was in!  I splurged today…but not in a bad way!  I got a roasted chicken breast Subway sandwich with cheese.  I dipped in light Buttermilk Ranch.  Dipping sure does make things much easier for me!  I hope everyone has a great day and weekend!  I am looking forward to weigh in tomorrow!  Excited to see how I did even without getting to exercise this week! 

I’ll be back tomorrow!  Take care and God bless!

Tracey

Good morning all!  I hope everyone is having a great day!   We’ve almost made it through another week!  So far it’s been a pretty good food week!  I got up this morning feeling much better than I have all week!  I didn’t have to take a muscle relaxer last night!  Woo Hoo!  I’m very excited, as if you couldn’t tell!   It’s the first time in almost a week that I haven’t been hurting so bad I wanted to scream and/or cry and I even wore heels yesterday!  Thank you Lord!  I just wanted to check in…hope everyone is having a great day!

Take care and God bless!

Tracey