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This has really been a lousy week!    I ate the rest of my Wednesday lunch yesterday.  My mother cooked for my birthday…and bought me a cake…and as miserable as I was, I had to eat it or I would make her feel bad!  I hate to do it, but I’m feeling the need to use the “No Weigh In” pass on Saturday…but then I’m not as accountable for my behavior.  I enjoyed seeing my Nanny (she’s my grandmother, my mother’s mother) last night, but it made me realize just how bad her memories are getting and mixed up.  Grant you, she’ll be 87 on April 6th, but she’s just not in good health and it will kill me when I lose her even though I know I should rejoice.  To top things off, my best friend for the last 10 years or so that I haven’t talked to in months who usually calls me on my birthday, didn’t even acknowledge my birthday at all.  That hurt…I’m just getting depressed…and that makes me want to comfort myself with food so I don’t have to feel this so hard right now…I haven’t, but it is so tempting right now to just EAT EVERYTHING!

Thanks all for “listening” to me vent…hopefully it will get much better now.

Take care and God bless!
Tracey