texasgidget

I was starting my new threads on WW.com.  I was responding to one of the girls that posts on there regularly.  I was explaining to her that for years and years I’d had a distorted self image.  To be honest, I know it’s still a little distorted because of what I’ve been through.  Until 3rd grade, I was so thin that other kids didn’t want to play with me too much because they were afraid I’d break.  Once I hit 3rd grade, things changed and I gained quite a bit of weight rather quickly, so I went from kids shunning me because I was so thin to them making fun of me because I’d gained weight.  My self image was so distorted that even when I lost down to a size 3 between my junior and senior year of high school, I still thought I was FAT.  I wasn’t, of course, but I thought I was.  Looking back on that now, I was never really fat, I was normal.  I was wearing a size 7 throughout most of high school.  The fact is that because of my height, any extra weight looks much worse on me.   I realized a year or so ago that I didn’t necessarily want to lose weight to be skinny or someone else’s impression of what a woman should look like.  I started on this weight loss journey because I need to be healthier…weight loss is a pleasant side effect.  I am truly blessed.  I have a wonderful son…who will be graduating this upcoming school year.  I have met a wonderful man that could not possibly be more special to me if he tried.  He accepts me just exactly the way I am now.  He’s told me since the beginning that I don’t have to be a little miss skinny mini to make him want me.  He has 2 wonderful children that I adore.  I’ve told him this before…he’s everything that I thought I didn’t want.  I didn’t think that I wanted to date a man with younger children…that was younger than me, etc.  If I would have made a list of all the things that I wanted in a man, he would be most all of that.  He amazes me…even after us having dated for only a matter of months…he’s still all the things that amazed me at the beginning.  The longer that I’m on this journey, the more things change…with my body and in my mind!  Thank God that things can change!