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Well, I seem to be moving a TAD slow on my water, but I am a woman determined!  Debbie, I’ve been SLACKING!  As much as I love your quarters challenge, I seem to keep forgetting to put my quarter in the jar/milk bottle.  I have made the decision to start over as of tomorrow.  I will put my milk bottle where I will see it that way I won’t forget to put my quarter in.  Here’s where the decision comes in.  As I’ve been having some problems getting back into my routine…and tomorrow is February 1st…I have decided to see how many days (yes, I know there’s only 28 days in February) I can get Activity Points in during this month.  Activity Points are what I get with WW.  I am thinking if I can at least manage to get 2 miles in on Monday, Wednesday and Friday (I just have to get my butt up earlier) and then I have Zumba on Tuesdays and Thursday evenings.  Of course, (yes, Nancy, I’m thinking about stength training too) I do need some strength training so I’m thinking maybe Monday and Wednesday evenings for a strength training DVD.  I’m open for some suggestions…the gym I’ve been paying for is further south than I care to drive right now…aside from the fact that I’m having to be pretty strict right now with my money.  Chris is being pretty supportive so I think that he’d be good with trying out some new lower fat recipes with him and I think I can talk him into walking with me on Saturday mornings after our date nights on Friday nights.  Occasionally, we change nights, but I think for the most part this is a schedule I can work with. 

Well, I swear I just wrote this and it disappeared! :-(  Let’s see, I did eat again today.  I went to weigh in as well…I lost 4.2 pounds this week!  If I can manage to keep it off since I’ve started eating again, then I’m only 11 pounds away from my all time low that I hit since I’ve been on WW.  I’m trying to be really positive.  I should be getting my results on Tuesday.  I’m not sure I’ll get to make it to Zumba, but I’ll know what the results were from my CT Scan.  I’m still hoping to be taking off the BP meds, but I do understand that it may take a little longer for that!  I’m throwing it all out there though and doing some wishful thinking!  We’ve got an audit next week…I have to admit that knowing it’s coming up, is really stressing me out!  Just going to have to continue praying over it and everything else that’s going on…and hope for the best!

My Diet Tribe will be happy now, I finally ate something.  I didn’t really want to, but I finally gave in and ate.  I’m now wishing I hadn’t, but I did.  I’m going through some personal issues right now, so please bear with me as I know I will be having good days and bad days.  I really don’t want to go into great detail, but suffice it to say, I’ve been doing some praying and fasting and reading the Word.  I really don’t know what else to do at this point.  We’ve got an audit scheduled for next week…and that’s not helping my stress level at all either.

Well, we are experiencing some not great weather going on right now.  It is below freezing at the moment and yes, we’ve had some precipitation…so we are certain to have some bad roads.  They called me earlier today at work to tell me that they were canceling class.  Honestly, as tired as I am, it’s probably best that I’m at home and NOT trying to drive on the yucky roads anyway.  I have been up for way too long.  I’m still dealing with the stuff with the love of my life.  I know we have some working through to do…but if he will talk to me, we can do just that.  At this point, we’ve not had much time to talk.  On a positive note…much like the rest of my wonderful buddies…I’m watching BL!  Yep, FINALLY, my local NBC affiliate and Dish Network FINALLY came to an agreement!  The one thing that I didn’t mention yesterday (or if I did, I don’t remember it)…WW called me yesterday.  I was looking at trying to work for them part time.  I am going to talk to my Dr. when I go back in and see what she says my goal weight should be.    WW says I should be 120 maximum…I didn’t even weigh that when I got pregnant with my son 18 years ago!  According to the coordinator that I talked to said she really looked forward to talking to me again about working for WW when I am 10 pounds away from my goal weight.  Something to shoot for…right?

I have had a rough day today.  About the only highlight in my day was talking to my Diet Tribe (Nancy, Anj, Kama, Nicole, Debbie and Lori) and having Girls Night out with my friends Aimee, Steph and Jenn.  Aside from that, my day pretty much sucked.  I ate more than I should have…I was so upset that I started eating which I’d been doing really well at not doing, but today was just hard.  Dinner was not a really great choice either…Mexican food…and a margarita.  I shouldn’t have had it, but for $2.00 and after the day I have had, I needed it.  I may have screwed up my relationship beyond repair, I don’t know, but he’s not calling or responding to text messages.  I don’t know what to think.  I’m off to bed…

I’m sorry, Buddies, that I hadn’t posted this week the way I have been.  I went to the doctor on Tuesday and found out that someone at the doctor’s office wrote my current meds down wrong.  I asked the doctor if she thought the Zyrtec D might be part of the reason that my BP was up.  She looked at my chart and said she didn’t realize that I was taking Zyrtec D…that it was a whole different animal!  Ummm…HELLO?  Why do you think I just asked the question?  Because of the migraine I’d had a couple of weeks ago and have had a headache pretty much since then, she decided to do a CT Scan.  The doctor’s office schedule my CT Scan for Friday morning.  So Friday, I got up, headed to my CT Scan before I headed to work.  Well, I figured I’d just kill 2 birds with one stone.  Since I couldn’t eat anyway, I’d head to have my blood drawn for the additional blood work she’d ordered before I headed to my CT Scan.  I wound up getting bruised…as if this should surprise me.  I started getting terribly dizzy on Friday afternoon.  I think part of the reason is the adjustment to the change in meds.  I had already talked to Chris about the possibility of me not feeling 100% for date night.  Good thing I forewarned him!  We sat down to watch Breakfast at Tiffany’s (yes, he wanted to watch it) and realized that his DVD player had seen better days.  I said “Dearest, does the laptop play DVD?”…”yes, but that’d just be cheesy.”  Okay, really??  Do you want to watch the movie or would you rather not?  I guess I should have just left the movies there, but I only left one.  We watched Yours, Mine and Ours on Saturday afternoon after the Pinewood Derby.  Chris’ son took 3rd.  He was really having a moment yesterday because he’d not invited his ex (I thought he’d invited her earlier in the week).  He sent her a text message and she declined the invitation.  I talked to him about it…I think sometimes he forgets that I’ve already been there and done that with my ex.  He is with the kids all the time…he sees what she’s missing out on.  Like I told him, if she really wanted to do more with the kids, then she would make a way to do more with the kids.  We can’t control the decisions that other people make…only our own.  Speaking of my wonderful man, I think I hurt his feelings last night.  That’s the absolute LAST thing I’d ever want to do.  So many things to work on…Hopefully this will be a better week.

I should totally be in bed asleep right now…but I just couldn’t because I just felt like I needed to come on here and blog.  The morning started out good…well, other than the fact I was up at 4 a.m.  I did, however, start early on my water.  Yes, Nancy, I still got my water in…104.5 oz., to be exact.  The bad part, however, is that I drank WAY TOO MUCH Dr. Pepper and coffee with cream and sugar!  I’m ashamed to admit that this has been such a horrible NOT OP day…but I am admitting it.  I think it was destined to be one of those days.  I couldn’t sleep last night…didn’t doze off until like 11ish, then awake a 4…started my WW.com threads and tried to go back to sleep for a bit.  Unfortunately that didn’t happen, but I did realize that in the event that I couldn’t be with my wonderful boyfriend/significant other (am I too old to have a boyfriend?) that I could at least see his smiling face staring back at me from my computer screen.  I did get up off my butt when I realized I couldn’t go back to sleep and walked 2 miles with Leslie Sansone before I jumped in the shower to get ready for my class.  I realized I’m actually sore from Tuesday’s Zumba class…but sore in a good way!  I had finished my first 33.8 oz. before 8 a.m.  Okay…I’m going to try to go to bed now and behave myself.  Goodnight buddies!

Yep, I made it safe and sound to OKC!  As I sit here right now thinking how absolutely miserable I am…wishing I hadn’t eaten quite so much of that sirloin…I know without any doubt that my stomach has shrunk!  For dinner, I had a 6 oz. sirloin steak, baked potato and some green beans.  Yes, there was food left on my plate.  ;-)  It was a wonderful meal and, to be honest, I have no idea how much water I’ve had today, but do know I got my 100 oz. in BEFORE 11 a.m. this morning and had a really big glass of water (of which I drank more than half) and a really big glass at the steak house just now (of which I drank more than half) and I stopped a few minutes ago at the store and bought 2 33 oz. bottles of water so I should have a good start tomorrow.  I packed several Leslie DVDs to bring with me…now I just need to get off my butt and do one of them!  I have set a goal to try to get at least 1 AP (activity point for those of you not familiar with the WW lingo) each day for at least 5 days.  I got 3 last night…and 3 on Saturday for my walking…but pretty much I’ve not done too well and I’m trying to fix that!  I highly doubt that I will be running any marathons tonight or anything, but I thought some Yoga might be a good choice.  Thinking it might help me relax before bed tonight.  Overall, it’s been a pretty good day…foodwise, not the best.  I don’t feel like I got nearly enough fruits and veggies, but tomorrow is another day…right?

I’m SO EXCITED!  I got to go to Zumba today!  *is doing the happy dance*  I know y’all are all aware that I LOVE ZUMBA!  And, for those that have been around for awhile, know that I LOVE Leslie Sansone too!  I guess some of my newer buddies might not know that about me, but Leslie helped me lose my first 25-30 pounds when I started WW.  With health problems, etc., I have gotten out of my exercise routine, but I am BOUND and DETERMINED to get back into it!  It’s just been a slow process getting back in the swing of things.  I am so excited because I got to go tonight.  Unfortunately, I’m not sure I’ll be able to make it on Thursday because I am heading to a class tomorrow just outside of Oklahoma City and I’m not sure I’ll make it back in time.  :-(  I am going to take a DVD (okay, maybe two) with me so that I can get a workout in while I’m away just in case.  It’s only for a couple of days, but I WANT to make sure I get in several workouts this week!  I have had a little over 150 oz. of water today.  I’m definitely excited about what the future holds for me this week.  How are my buddies doing?

It’s a wonderful day…Kama’s birthday…so it has to be a good day!  I am having a some minor muscle spasms, but I did get my water in today (about 119 oz.)!  I am sitting here watching some of the episodes that I missed of the Discovery Health National Body Challenge.  I also found out that The Biggest Loser is on a different channel (Fine Living Network) so I actually have gotten to watch part of it when I got home on Saturday night.  About the first 45 minutes of it and then a few minutes of it last night, but my son TiVoed it for me, so I’ll get to watch it.  I do wish he’d not forgotten to make the Dish come up when he was TiVoing The Body Challenge for me…he wound up TiVoing the Dish symbol for the first 45ish minutes during the second episode (the first episode that I missed).  I am feeling pretty positive though.  My wonderful SO, Chris was trying so hard to make sure that what I had was OP and healthy on Saturday while I was there with him.  He did tell me that he splurged yesterday and went to Tong’s for Chinese food.  I assure you they don’t have the healthiest items on the menus from what I’ve seen.  I am really proud of him for trying.  He’s mentioning things to me that really makes me realize that we are really going to have a future together.  He is definitely the love of my life.  His daughter has made a point to tell him again that she loved me and they wanted me to be their step-mom.  It really makes me proud that she thinks so highly of me.  I fight with depression and I have for awhile.  The way that he handles me and my moods and my bad days is totally in a positive way.  He reminds me that I am loved and positive things like that.  I don’t think anyone has really ever managed to try to handle it that way before.  He’s really a special man…those buddies that talk to me daily seem to agree with me that he’s a keeper.

Okay…I didn’t realize that they did ZUMBA on Discovery Health Body Challenge!?!?  I’m so excited!  I love Zumba!  I’m hoping that I’ll feel up to going tomorrow night! I’m feeling a tad ADD or something right now!  It’s just simply that I saw it on the screen and I was really excited!  I guess I really should end this now…I feel like as soon as this episode is over, I think I will get some veggies cut up for tomorrow.