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Looking back on the memory of the past year…when I had my 37th birthday, I didn’t expect to meet this man that I have fallen head over heels for…I didn’t expect to “meet” and get to know such wonderful buddies.  I have to admit that I am so very blessed.  Almost one year ago, I met this wonderful man that loves me just the way I am but supports me in my weight loss journey and being healthier.  I have “met” and become so close to Nancy, Lori, Anj, Debbie and Nicole…Kama and I were already friends.  It’s amazing to me that we are all so close even though we’ve  not ever met face to face.  I know that I have had my trials and tribulations during my 37th year with the migraines and having to be put on blood pressure meds, but in my 38th year, I will get off the blood pressure meds and I will figure out my triggers for my migraines and try to avoid them.  I’m making strides…although sometimes not as often as I’d like, but I’m making them.  In my 38th year, I am stronger than I was in my 28th year.  In my 38th year, I have more knowledge than I did in my 28th year.  In my 38th year, I have the ability to reach my goal weight…here’s to my 38th year!  I never expected to be here, I never expected to be this in love, I never expected to have such wonderful friends and family…but here I am…so blessed!

It’s going to be a stressful week, but hopefully a much better one.  Chris will be meeting my former attorney/boss/friend on Tuesday night.  This will be the first time they have met and she will get to meet the kids.  I’m looking forward to it since I know she will be able to see how we feel about each other when she meets us.  I think most everyone can see it.  This week will include some firsts…I have my first mammogram on Wednesday.  I’m DEFINITELY going to get a handle on things in my 38th year!  As Garth sung so well years ago…I might have missed the pain, but I’d have missed the dance.  I wouldn’t miss this dance for anything!

Okay, obviously I can’t just miraculously wake up and be slimmer…but I think y’all know what I mean.  I had a rough week this week.  Then for some reason apparently even though I’ve had a hysterectomy, my one lone ovary started working some serious overtime and I had ALL the symptoms of PMS!  Really??  I’m thinking it may be time for some natural hormones or something.  I really can’t take the mood swings and such.  Call me crazy but it seems to be a pretty bad thing when you don’t even want to be around you! ;-)  Although, after seeing my honey last night I was feeling a little lost.  Most of you probably know I’m not around too terribly much on Saturdays.  I really was not quite sure what to do with myself.  So I chatted with a friend briefly on IM and then she text me to tell me that she was going walking…so I finished my movie and headed to the lake to walk with her…unfortunately, we only got about a half a mile or so before her knee was hurting so bad she just couldn’t make it around the lake.  We sat enjoying the weather for a bit…then I came home and did a 4 mile walk with Leslie Sansone.  Those who have been around awhile know I love me some Leslie!  I feel much better having got a workout in.  I did forget to take my blood pressure meds last night so I have a slight headache.  I know the workouts are helping a great deal.

Other decisions were made this week too.  I decided that I would walk for my bank’s team for the American Cancer Society’s Relay for Life.  I know there are many that are going through hard times, but if you feel it on your heart to donate, here is the link to my page: http://main.acsevents.org/site/TR/RelayForLife/RFLFY09PL?px=9663135&pg=personal&fr_id=17444&fl=en_US&s_tafId=28942

I will actually give some credit to the “tribe” for helping me make that decision.  I am trying to talk Chris into walking with me as well.  What could be better than having the love of my life walking next to me for such a wonderful cause?  Yep, I hear ya…my love AND my bestest buddies walking with me for such a wonderful cause!  That would definitely be better!  Y’all feel like flying into Dallas for a walk?  LOL

I know there’s much that goes on during the week that I simply cannot seem to catch up on.  Please know that I do try to log on more frequently and do check my email as often as I can, but I can’t get on BS at all anymore at work because it’s blocked.  Kama, Anj, Nancy, Nicole and Lori are copying and pasting things they want to talk about in emails for me because it just makes me crazy.  I’m trying to do better at getting on…but sometimes it seems to be all I can do to log my food and get my workouts in.  Okay…this is going to be a good week…food-wise and exercise wise…it has to be!

Suffice it to say that I’ve missed my buddies!  I talk to the “tribe” pretty much everyday, but I don’t get to log on and read everyone’s blogs and such.  Especially since they blocked it from work.  I’m beginning to think I need to take my laptop and leave at lunch to park somewhere that has free WiFi and log in then! ;-)  That sounds sad, doesn’t it?  Oh well, let’s see to catch everyone up…eating last week was not too great.  But honestly, a splurge for me is not (thankfully) as bad as it used to be.  There are few things I can finish the way I used to be able to because my stomach has shrunk.  I did go to Zumba on Tuesday night…I’ve been trying to walk as well.  I intended to do another workout last night…but apparently, it was NOT meant to be.  About an hour before I left the office, I started getting a migraine.  The kind that hits behind your eyes.  My drive is only 30-45 minutes (a lot of that depends on traffic and my speed).  Let me tell you that was the LONGEST drive home last night!  The sun was shining in my driver’s side window, I thought I was going to be sick.  It was not a good feeling.  The really frustrating thing is that I had planned to go to Sprouts.  For those of you that don’t have it, it’s like a Farmer’s Market in a grocery store!  Wednesdays are double ad days so you get the sales from the previous week and the sales from the coming week in one night.  Unfortunately, was NOT meant for me to do that last night either.  I was supposed to have dinner plans last night, but they cancelled, rescheduled, cancelled again, potentially rescheduled.  Oh well!  What can you do, right?  I came home, walked through the door, I took my contacts out, took my migraine meds and put myself to bed.  No tv, no lights (yes, I covered my eyes when someone needed me to turn on a light)…it was just that bad!  It’s now 2:24 a.m. in my neck of the woods…and I FINALLY woke up about an hour ago.  I can feel the after effects, but overall, the migraine has eased.  I tell you it’s like it came out of freaking no where!  I’m not even sure it was something I ate that triggered it.  I have NO idea!

Oh!  The “tribe” knows, but I haven’t gotten to tell the rest of my buddies!  My Significant Other’s (SO) daughter and I seem to be making great strides.  After almost a year together, my SO’s daughter asked him (she’s only spelled my name one other time and that was months ago) how to spell my name.  I heard her ask but didn’t know why.  She apparently was writing a note that said “I love you Daddy.  I love you Tracey. I love you…The End.”  There were more, but you get the general idea!  That’s the first time she’s really written or told me that she loved me.  Then, after we got back from dinner and all and she was ready to go to bed (my cell phone was charging so I was still there), she asked my SO to have me come in and tell her goodnight.  Buddies, I tell you when I left that night to drive home (although very tired), my heart was SO FULL!  I feel like March is a great month to make strides as I will be a year older this month.  I know that Chris, my SO, doesn’t care what I weigh, but we’ve talked and he does want me to be healthy so I can be around for a long time.  I hope I can get on tonight and catch up with everyone!  Hope everyone has a great day!  I should try to get some more rest or I’m liable to crash and burn in the middle of work!